These past few years have been a roller coaster. Designing From My Closet represents so much more than fashion to me. When I first created it I was a woman who was searching for change, internal peace, personal identity, and purpose. After a series of upsetting circumstances and seeing my fortieth birthday approaching, I knew I needed to disrupt the known pattern of my life.
Starting a fashion blog was just one way to push myself beyond my fears and get myself out of the normal pattern I had created over the years. It was a venture I honestly thought would last all of a few months. Little did I know at the time how much it would be a part of my self love journey. I created a video on the topic several months ago that I would like to do a Part II to share updates since a lot has happened since then. Putting myself out there onto the internet took courage I did not know I had. It also took a great deal of discipline to create content and put it out on a regular schedule. It really shook things up in my life, in a good way.
I wish I could express all of the changes that have taken place in my life. All I can tell you is that I feel like a new woman and I am so happy to share that with you. After carrying around so much pain and hurt that I covered up with coping mechanisms, I do not think I realized how much was bottled up inside. I was happy before, and now I feel a calmness, a peace inside. And let me say that it has absolutely nothing to do with circumstances because looking through worldly eyes, things could be a lot better. As far as I am concerned, being able to lay all of that at Jesus’ feet has taken a huge load off, spiritually, mentally, and physically.
As far as my personal identity, I have found great pleasure in my many current rolls that I know will be constantly changing. For now, I am a child of Christ, a wife, a partner, a team member, a friend, a sister, a doggie mama, a wardrobe stylist, a blogger, and a motivator. These are all titles I am proud of and take each one as a great gift bestowed upon me.
And my purpose…to put it simply, my purpose is to live in the moment. To be present in each situation and live it to its fullest potential. Being mindful in my decisions has created an entire new outlook on life. My genuine self is finally emerging among all of the walls I have placed around myself and it feels wonderful. I feel truly blessed.
This outfit represents these changes in many ways. The beautiful Arabesque pattern on this bomber jacket shows my love for print and color. What better way to show my authentic self. This fall season I have incorporated quite a bit of red into my wardrobe and it has not been by accident. Red represents strength and power and it is an outward representation of my life right now. The vintage necklace that was once my mothers shows that I have embraced my past with a loving heart, even if some of it was painful. My past has created me into the woman I am today.
One thing that has been noticeable through pictures here has been a record of me trying new types of garments. Years before I began Designing From My Closet, I never wore skinny jeans. I had a fear of showing the true outline of my legs because I did not embrace what my body looked like. I also pretty much despised ankle boots and mules, yet here I am sporting and loving these beauties, all because I tried them on.
I am far from being perfect, and honestly that is not my goal. I want to be relatable to all of my readers regardless of their age, size, or ethnicity. You inspire me to continue and to push myself with my career as a wardrobe stylist. I may not have the biggest following, but to me I am truly blessed to have this little space where I can share my outfits and my thoughts. Thank you for being a part of my self love journey and Designing From My Closet. I will constantly be pushing myself to do new ventures to see where it takes me and I hope that you enjoy them as well.
For all my US readers, have a wonderful Thanksgiving day and be blessed.
SHOP MY LOOK
I got my ruffled tank from the Who What Wear collection at Target last year, but I did a quick search on Poshmark and found 6 of the same top in all different sizes from different sellers. Just click the one you are interested in below and it will take you to the listing. To join Poshmark, download the app and use my referral code BYKEJ to receive a $5 credit to go towards your first purchase! Here is a link to my closet as well: j9design.
Today’s Postivity Note
Be true to who you are.