His Eye is on the Sparrow

If I have not shared this before, I have a bit of an obsession with birds.  I grew up on a street with a bird name and now I have a bird in my company logo.  A while ago I found this bright blue blouse with a bird print at Target and have worn it many times.

Bird Print Top and Camel Leather Jacket

I styled it with a camel colored faux leather jacket that I found at Goodwill of Orange County.  It looks a little different from when I posted a quick selfie on Instagram because I cinched it the waist with a simple brown braided belt.  The jacket is actually a little big on me, but it was too good to pass up and there is nothing more I hate than having a jacket that is too tight in the upper arms.  I have joined Audrey again over on Putting Me Together for her PMT Style Challenge of Belting Something.

Belted Leather Jacket

The way it creates a beautiful full peplum is just stunning, I think.  The length is perfect for covering the tushie with my olive skinnies and the shoulder detail is so pretty.

Belted Leather Jacket

The biggest reason I titled this post His Eye is on the Sparrow is partially because of the bird print top and bird necklace I am dawning and partially because of what happened to me the day I wore this last week.

Bird Print Top and Camel Leather Jacket

Lately, I have been struggling with depression due to my mom.  She was diagnosed with dementia several years ago and I was surprised how strong I was when she and my dad first told me.  She was so young, and still is.  I took on the roll of encourager and became a very assertive individual when it came to everything I did with her and for her.  A major decline in her condition has caused me to really struggle though.  What I used to just laugh through has turned to sadness for me.

Bird Print Top and Camel Leather Jacket

It became glaringly apparent to me that I was really missing my mom.  Even in my late thirties, I need my mom.  Her company and advise have always been invaluable to me.  This was the reason I always was so willing to help her in any way I could.  Right after I took these pictures, I went on a Target run to get some household items.  As I shopped, it hit me.  I was grieving my mom.  Panic set in and a full anxiety attack came over me right in the middle of the store.  I sought solace in a dressing room.

Bird Print Top and Camel Leather Jacket

As I sat there catching my breath, I glanced down at my top.  I was instantly reminded of a song my mother used to sing at church when I was a child: His Eye is on the Sparrow.  I sang under my breath the song and I really was not sure if I even would remember the words.  They flowed out easily as I know Jesus was comforting me right there in that Target fitting room.

“Why should I be discouraged and why should the shadows fall?
Why should my heart be lonely and long for heaven and home?
When Jesus is my portion, my constant Friend is He,
His eye is on the sparrow and I know He watches me.
His eye is on the sparrow and I know He watches me.

I sing because I’m happy;
I sing because I’m free;
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know He watches me.”

Bird Print Top and Camel Leather Jacket

I am sharing this story because it was so impactful to me.  There are so many people who struggle with saying good bye to loved ones who suffer from dementia.  Jesus is truly the only way I have dealt with all of this.  His peace and love has clothed me with a joy that does not come from my circumstances.

Wearing this bird ensemble was no coincidence that day and I do sing because I am happy.  My mom is the biggest reason why I put a positivity note at the end of each and every one of my posts.  She is still one of the most positive people I know.

Today’s Postivity Note

A bird doesn’t sing because it has an answer.  It sings because it has a song. -Myra Angelou

Be Blessed!

Janeane

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2 comments

  1. What a beautiful post, and such a sweet testimony that the Lord can encourage our hearts with His truth, no matter the situation or location. 🙂 Thank you for sharing your faith here. My prayer is that you continue to find a positive outlook each day with your mom; and that the Lord reminds you over and over that He is carrying you each step of the way.

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